by Marilyn M. Irwin

Lately a lot of thoughts have been invading my thoughts.

A lot of them most would deem socially unacceptable.

So I sit quietly and keep them in.

No questions answered, no resolution reached

But yet peace kept and tension low.

These thoughts range from rebellious to silly

From anger to hurt

From love to disrespect

They form and hang in my mind , with words like

I don’t like spending time with you, though you’re different than me

You’re a mess

I have lost a lot of respect for you

Stop being lazy. Care for your family.

Grow a pair and stand up for yourself.

You’re abusing him.

You’re crazy.

Secretly I wish you would show up at my door and apologize and we’d hug. But you won’t and we won’t ever be besties again.

You truly hurt me and it haunts me daily.

I feel inferior to you.

I’m scared out of my mind though you see my collected side.

You’re selfish. Think of someone else for a change.

How does that make sense to you?

I don’t like talking to you because I have nothing to contribute to the conversation.

I’m agist. You are too young for me to even try to relate to.

Why is that fair? Practice justice.

I hate clapping in Zumba. I refuse. It’s stupid. I will also not woo.

I’m terrified of failure.

I can’t stick to a health plan to save my life and I hate myself for it.

I hate small talk. Please stop talking to me.

Socially unacceptable words creep into my mind.

I can’t say them to you so I will keep them to myself.

Though the words are bursting to escape, I choose to be socially acceptable.

© 2018 ck’s days