Here I am feeling sorry for myself again
wondering if my trials will ever end
or if I will ever win.
I don’t know the next step or what to do
I’m so tired of always having to lose
so I’m on my knees again
getting ready to plead again
asking to be smarter than I am again.
My faith is in doubt
but before the plea comes out
without any explanation
my prayer moves in a new direction
I’m surprised by my exclamation.
Instead of asking what I should do
The only thing I utter is Thank You.
A list forms in my mind
of everything I call mine
that I’ve been given over time.
At first, I wasn’t totally with it
then my heart opened bit by bit.
Turns out I was wrong
my list is quite long
and I go on and on.
I list all that I’m thankful for
and I do not ask for more.
And now, I must confess
I truly have been blessed
my weary heart found rest.
A new feeling grows inside of me
and I fall asleep peacefully.