50th Wedding Anniversary

There should have been a party today.

And there would have been one, too.

It would have been grand.

Friends and family would have gathered in the halls.

Some bearing gifts.

All bringing well wishes and memories.

All because of fifty years.

I mean, fifty years is a long time.

It can be a lifetime.

It’s longer than a lifetime for some.

All to commemorate a wedding

in a church

on July 25, 1964.

It would have been a great party.

 

Perhaps

she reminisces on her side of the veil

and is wished a happy anniversary

while he slowly twists the ring on his finger

and remembers

and is surrounded by muted tones.

 

Perhaps

there are tears on both sides of the veil today.

Well-earned tears.

Forty seven years together,

3 years separated

not by choice.

They earned those tears.

There should have been a party today.

Work in Progress

I’m not perfect

this I know.

I’m in process –

room to grow.

The right words

I seldom find

the wrong words

come all the time.

Please be patient

with this girl you see

for she is still

learning how to be.

© 2014 ck’s days

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The Glimpse

I saw you there,

for just a moment,

before I passed.

You stood by your camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to your family campers.

And for an instant,

a flash,

a thought –

I wonder,

I wonder if

that would have been me

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

For just a moment,

I thought I saw

a glimpse

a small peek

into what my life

would have been like

if I would have said

yes

twenty some years ago.

Would I,

could I have been

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers?

But the thought wisped away

like smoke from a dying fire.

If I had said yes,

I reminded myself,

twenty years ago

I probably would still not be

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

I would still be alone

driving down this road

because there was no

hesitation twenty years ago

behind the decline –

so why should there be

hesitation now?

I am in the right place.

 

Oh yeah.

Sometimes I forget

and I long for the day

I’m standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

© 2014 ck’s days

 

The Toll We Pay

I didn’t think I could do it.

I thought that I would fail.

To my surprise I did it.

I survived this dreadful tale.

 

I’m stronger than I thought.

I didn’t even fall.

But now around my heart

I had to build a wall.

 

I can survive anything.

But what will be the cost?

Is it worth remaining

if my soul is lost?

 

Is that the toll we pay

just for getting older?

The heart continues beating

but everyday grows colder.

 

© 2014 ck’s days

3 Words

guest blogger

by Marilyn M. Lee

Please don’t say it

I can tell you want to

But I’m begging you not to

You’re not going to be happy with my response

Which is running

“I’m just not looking for anything serious” will be what I lie to you

Lie to myself

The odds are not good

10 times proposals have been whispered

Come and gone

Never followed with an “I do”

 

Please don’t say it

It’s an expected month recovery

At least

On my end

I get attached, so you won’t be the only one hurting

But don’t worry

The next one you meet will be the one

There will be tuxes, and dresses, and music

I’ll be a memory

But you’ll still hang in my heart, while I fly from yours

 

Please don’t let him say it, I plead to Above

Please don’t make me do this again,

Say these words

They are the same words every time

Cause honesty scares me

It hurts, I’ll pray

Every time

I’m losing strength

Every time

Gaining fear

Gaining doubt in myself and my decisions

Get me through this

Give me hope

Give me strength

 

So please don’t say it

Maybe you won’t be sad,

But you’ll regret it

And I’ll be struggling

Love and lost is not always better

Sometimes it’s better to never have

 

 

Please let me say it.

Next time, please let me agree

© 2014 ck’s days