There is no reason I should connect with this song.
At first, I didn’t. I didn’t even notice it or pay attention to it when it first came out. Until one day I listened to the lyrics because I was curious. What is she singing about? I thought. Oh, she’s singing about alcohol abuse from the perspective of an alcoholic. Yeah, I can’t relate.
But then I listened to it again and something resonated within me. What could it be?
Is it the fact the narrator is crying out for help so very loudly and clearly? Yet, she is asking in such a beautiful manner that it reminds me beautiful things can come from the darkest of hours. The depths of pain can create art and splendor. Even though none of us want it, pain is a part of life and life is meant to be this wondrous journey we are on. The brushstrokes may not always be pleasant but hopefully the overall picture of our life will be a work of art worth looking at.
I may not connect with the story of this song but I can connect with the emotion. For me it’s this: let’s take the pain, weakness, and darkness of this life and make it the most insightful, beautiful we can. That is something I can try to do. That is something I wanted to do after listening to this song. There was an intensity in me to create something that can connect with other people.
Or am I connecting with the performance of this song at the Grammys? I watched the official music video and don’t understand it. But that’s me; I don’t get modern dance. To be honest, I think it’s silly and a waste of my time. No offense to any dancers out there. I just don’t understand because it’s never been translated to my language so that I can appreciate it. So I watched the video once and then read all the criticism regarding it.
But it was the performance at the Grammys that I paid attention to. Not the dancing but the singer in the corner facing the wall and never turning around. By her body moves I could tell she sung her heart out. How strange. A singer with a popular song that never showed her face and hid from the accolades at the pinnacle of awards for singers. That made the pain in the song even more real. Life is not about hiding away it’s about living it. Trust me; I know what I’m talking about here. If you’re going to sing a song, turn around and face the audience. Granted, if she had done that I probably would not be mentioning it here.
In the end, I think the melody of the song was pretty. That’s all. I connected with the catchy tune of the song and ignored the lyrics. The fascination I had for it is already fading. Something that fleeting surely had a superficial foundation.
I’m including the video for the Grammys performance here. If you’re like me, you’re going to have to ignore the dancing and watch the singer in the background. See what you think.