There was a good stretch of a few years, that I had a daily goal to write 20 minutes a day. It was mostly fluff stuff but it was still something I actually did. A goal I actually accomplished and me and goal fulfillment has not always been a thing. I filled up a couple of small thought notebooks and probably shared most of my writings on this blog. Then one day, I stopped writing in my little book on a daily basis. Mainly because I didn’t feel like I was improving any so why bother? One day became two which became a week, a month, and a few months without writing daily. I just don’t write things down like I used to. I would not declare it a tragic loss but rather just life moving downstream with different goals and agendas prioritized.

I always fancied myself a writer and had this dream of being recognized for my words and writing. Funny thing is, the more I wrote the more I understood that was probably not going to happen. And that’s okay. I could see the limit of what I could achieve.

I wrote to figure out my world and understand my reality. I wrote to express myself. I wrote to create something. And what I learned along the way is I didn’t need to be perfect to do all that. It’s more about expression, my expression. In other words, write for me and if others want to come for the ride, great. If not, write what I want to say.

As I have traveled further down my road I have found other ways to create and express myself. I think that is the key to life. To find ways to create and share little pieces of yourself. Share your experiences in some way with others to build a connection. I have never been good at doing that in social ways so I choose artistic means.

I will never write that grand masterpiece that will be beloved by generations. Turns out the best art I could ever create is that of my soul and character. Becoming a good person and filling my life with experiences and connections. That will be my greatest masterpiece I could ever create. All of this that I do, helps me with that primary goal.

I have no idea where this road will go next but I sure am curious.