I saw you there,

for just a moment,

before I passed.

You stood by your camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to your family campers.

And for an instant,

a flash,

a thought –

I wonder,

I wonder if

that would have been me

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

For just a moment,

I thought I saw

a glimpse

a small peek

into what my life

would have been like

if I would have said

yes

twenty some years ago.

Would I,

could I have been

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers?

But the thought wisped away

like smoke from a dying fire.

If I had said yes,

I reminded myself,

twenty years ago

I probably would still not be

standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

I would still be alone

driving down this road

because there was no

hesitation twenty years ago

behind the decline –

so why should there be

hesitation now?

I am in the right place.

 

Oh yeah.

Sometimes I forget

and I long for the day

I’m standing by my camper

in the middle of camp

giving instructions

to my family campers.

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